When I got to Converse I became really happy. I knew this is where I belonged and I wasn't as nervous about the classes. So far this semester I've learned that music theory is not as bad as I thought. I can actually do it and I'm making an "A" in the class. I've also realized that I can sight sing, but I'm still a little self conscious about doing it. In high school I used to just study a little bit and breeze through my classes. I made good grades but I didn't work that hard. In college, I can't do that. I actually have to study really hard in order to get a good grade.
Due to all the things that I have learned this far during my freshman year I have changed some things about me. I study harder now and try to manage my time a lot better than I used to. I also feel more independent and grown up now that I'm in college. since I have made so many new friends that was a big confidence booster. Its good to know that people like me for who I am, not some fake person I try to be. By the way, I never ever am fake about who I am. I have a personality that is special to me and I don't want to cover that up with some other fake personality.
In the future I plan to graduate. Music therapy is my plan right now but I am completely open to change and I'm pretty sure that music therapy is what I want to do but I'm not 100% sure and I want to be in something that I am 100% sure I love. Maybe I'll grow to love music therapy, who knows. I also want to become more confident when it comes to playing guitar, playing viola, playing piano and whatever other instrument I may learn. In order to meet these goals I have to study hard to keep my GPA up to keep my money and discipline myself to practice even when I don't want to.
I am very lucky to have a had a lot of people influence me all throughout my life. Of course my family has been a major influence because I live with them, but my friends and boyfriend have been there too. Of course I said this quote in class but I love it so I'll say it again: "Good friends are like bras. Supportive, never leave you hanging, make you look good and always close to your heart." I'm not sure who made up the quote but I love it. My friends are awesome and I include my cousins in this. They have always given me good advice to follow and always made me feel like I am capable of anything/ My boyfriend is the same way. He has always wanted what was best for me and for me to be happy. I love my friends, family and my boyfriend for their never ending support.
Now here is another thing that I have learned about myself. I have a hard time letting things go. For example, orchestra and colorguard. These were the two things I was involved in during my high school years and I loved them both. These activities really made me who I am and gave me many opportunities. In orchestra I was able to play a solo piece with a piano accompaniment and conduct the orchestra. I conducted Titanic in memory of my mother. This conducting experience gave me the opportunity to see what it was like to be a orchestra director. I definitely realized that music education is something that i probably should not go into because I would not be able to deal with students not being quiet and not paying attention. In colorguard I was captain of the guard my senior year. This gave me leadership opportunities and I really enjoyed that. I also got to perform a solo which made me be more critical about how I was spinning and performing so that my solo would look good.
The last thing I want to say before I stop writing the book or my life is I want to talk about the person that has been the most influential in my life, my dad. I love my dad so much. I am a hard core daddy's girl and proud of it! My dad has been through so much in his life like playing in bands, being away from his family a lot and loosing his wife but my daddy has stayed strong and never given up hope. I know he loves me like crazy and wants everything in the world for me. One of my biggest fears in life is loosing him. After loosing a mom it would be absolutely devastating to loose my dad. He is really a hero to me. My pop song in music theory is about my dad and I thought I would share the chorus I wrote for it. This is kind of a rough draft but I like it: "Talk to me and show me you're there. Hold my hand and never let go. All my life even when I'm grown. Please promise me...you'll always be there."
Well, there's my life. Who I was, who I've become and who I am now. Plus, all the experiences that have shaped me along the way. Hope you enjoy :)
I'm so glad you've enjoyed SSS! Our hope is that it will be a safe place to learn the practical skills you need to get the most out of college. Just make sure that you let those of us not in your theory class hear your song! I want to hear it!
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Susan, I really enjoyed your project. I could tell you are realy passionate about the things in your life, especially music and your daddy. I feel the same about both of those things. I loved how you included pictures and items into your presentation. It was great!
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